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You have to complete me
I wanna be whole
I don’t wanna live like this
chasing earthly pleasures
dying a slow death
under my flesh’s control
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My neck is stiff from watching porn but I keep watching it, it’s all I get outside dating.
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It’s been a while since I’ve dated, I don’t wanna fuck up but when I allowed myself a fuck-up it failed. But I’ve forgiven Brad and my cheatsheet’s still on-line, plus I’m doing better this time.
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I hopped in bed with my device and cuddled up to it, I rarely have the house to myself. But I got besides myself and amped the volume ((no headphones)) trying to come like them in the video.
“Are You Serious!!!”
Audrey had gotten out her bed and perched herself outside my door, I closed the site and prayed for her to go away. She said something to Kylie when she got back to her room but I cursed myself for not keeping Sabbath.
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Cleaning up after people who can clean up after themselves is depressing so I wear headphones while I clean to tune them out. Mom hates it cause she likes to talk but she doesn’t make them clean so I win cause I refuse to take them off before I’m done.
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I ran upstairs to wash my hands when I caught sight of it, there were brown stains on the shower floor again. Rye was the only one who hadn’t showered and I’d seen his feet an hour ago so I guess I shouldn’t be mad cause they aren’t black stains.
Reaching under the sink I grabbed the bag of scrubbers and a pair of cleaning gloves before taking my anger out on it. But I didn’t just take my anger out on the shower floor I took it out on God reprimanding him for what Rye did.
“What the fuck is this?
I already cleaned it once today,
I haven’t even watched porn since I’ve been up”
God suggested I clean awhile back to battle my porn addiction but I’m definitely watch porn after cleaning this.
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Twelve days without porn before I finally cave, there has to be more to life than this. Valentine’s Day’s around the corner so it’s another year alone, a first for mom since Sire’s death so I should chill.
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I indulged in porn just to indulge in it though I knew there was no chance of getting off, I needed something to counteract thoughts of Pastor B. He’s stolen my heart without taking it, won me over without trying and making my fantasies more real than reality. I know I’ll come if I let them but I want to come with someone else so I’ll use porn and his twin Jared even if it’s a wasted effort.
“I need B. out now”
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New fantasies about B. got me craving porn again when I’d rather act them out with his twin Jared.
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I’m addicted to porn because I’m alone, I’m alone because of my up-bringing but I didn’t think following Christ was like this. Sire’s gone, I’m hurting, fantasies about B weaken me, I’m not strong enough to fight this on my own. The pain imprisons me, I’m a slave to the things I lust. Don’t let my flesh kill me before you intervene.
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Flashback to the days when I sinned back to back. I didn’t bothering repenting until I knew I was done. I only needed it once a month and if they were good I’d call them back but porn was always there to fill the gap.
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I can’t apologize for my behavior, it’s what I’ve become. My will’s become the will of my flesh to please itself. Porn helps me please myself, others do the job when it’s not enough and because I don’t touch myself I need them.
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